In the search of something

We all born in the search of something…

Something to accomplish, something to achieve, something that brought meaning to life, something that set firm our footsteps, something that make sense, something that will ease the pain? loneliness? wondering heart?

In order to give ANSWER to those arising questions, we keep digging our way out. Yet, sometimes we might dig into the wrong path, which might bring troubles and problems to ourselves.

Even though such things might happened, never lose faith and hope. As long as we keep stay curious, stay conscious, be patient and walk firmly, someday the answer will be knocking on the door.


Be patience in waiting and move on to the next chapter, all things will be alright.

A sudden pop in my mind, I know everything will be alright and this is only my personal reminder for myself.



Heart at Ease

We are living in the century of life where everything is in the fast forward pace which actually indirectly, we ourselves had been influenced strongly. Our footstep is forced to be move fast to catch up with the trend of life, yet we could not truly find the clear direction of life if we didn’t stop for a moments to readjust ourselves.

There are times, we rush in wanted to settle every mistakes that has been done.
There are times, where we wanted to accomplished a lot of things in a year.
There also would be time, we hope that life won’t be full of complicated issues.
There are times, we are hurry to make things done in a day, a week or a year…

Through a those moments or situations, we are actually focusing things or people, issues or problems, to be disappear in no time. Yet, actually everything occurred and settled down in their own pace.

As how Solomon wrote Ecclesiastes in the Bible, There is a time phrase for everything in Ecclesiastes 3:1-15

There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

    a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
    a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
    a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
    a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
    a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
    a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
    a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.

15 Whatever is has already been,
    and what will be has been before;
    and God will call the past to account.


Thus, in everything, we need to take a break. Though it is surely hard to truly withdraw ourselves from everything or the responsibility of life we bear of, nonetheless, we need to learn to know how to have our heart be at ease.

Heart at ease is the same as having God’s peace to rest upon you.

It is indeed a learning process for each and everyone of us who born and are still living under the fast pace lifestyle. We need to clarify, organise, tidy up our life.

Through any method that suits us most, certainly we would definitely found our very own way. As for me, it is through simplified lifestyle. Some author or blogger would define it as Minimalist. To me, both of it deals with the same issues.

It is making your all busy life, life that crowded with a lot of stuffs, issues, into a simple and real focus life. It is slowly making your life simple and you would have time for what is matter most to you.

It is a life long process, but when you had start to take the first step, you will definitely discover the beauty of your life.

Throughout the process of my life, I would give all praise to my Heavenly Father. It is due to He is always the one who guide me to the exact right path which I truly need. In this case, He had link me to a brand new lifestyle that I never ever imagine.

I am so excited when He reveals to me what has been in store awaiting me. From a messy person, now I am able to keep everything tidily, though still in a learning process.

Because of my loving Father, He has transformed me into a person I never would have imagine to be 4 years ago. From an uncaring person, to a person who will focus and live life responsibly. All of this happened because I had encountered a loving God that cares for me more than ever.

He is willing to help and let us lean on Him, He is always awaiting for us to seek Him. For His promise never change, He is forever faithful. He is still awaiting all of us to walk our life journey with Him. I believe a lot of people out there still seeking the answer of life. Through this sharing is just a testimony to share how our Heavenly Father works in my daily life in transforming me. It is a platform to share of His goodness. May those who read or came upon this article to find your heart is at ease in knowing there is a loving God who is willing to help you more than anything. All He requires of you is just a simple asking. Ask and seek, you will definitely found Him.

May you encounter our Heavenly Father in your unique way and be a blessing to others as well. All glory belong to my Abba Father that is always there for me.

Song of this article:  Touch of Heaven by Hillsong Worship

How I live for the moments
Where I’m still in Your presence
All the noise dies down
Lord speak to me now
You have all my attention
I will linger and listen
I can’t miss a thing
Lord I know my heart wants more of You
My heart wants something new
So I surrender all
All I want is to live within Your love
Be undone by who You are
My desire is to know You deeper
Lord I will open up again
Throw my fears into the wind
I am desperate for a touch of heaven
Oh Oh Oh Oh
You’re the fire in the morning
You’re the cool in the evening
The breath in my soul
All the life in my bones
There is no hesitation
In Your love and affection
It’s the sweetest of all
Lord I know my heart wants more of You
My heart wants something new
So I surrender all
All I want is to live within Your love
Be undone by who You are
My desire is to know You deeper
Lord I will open up again
Throw my fears into the wind
I am desperate for a touch of heaven
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
I open up my heart to You
I open up my heart to You now
So do what only You can
Jesus have Your way in me now (come on)
I open up my heart to You, yeah
I open up my heart to You now
So do what only You can
Jesus have Your way in me now
I open up my heart to You, yeah
I open up my heart to You now
So do what only You can
Jesus have Your way in me now
Oh oh oh oh
Na na na
Na na na
For every voice is saying
All I want is to live within Your love
Be undone by who You are
My desire is to know You deeper
Lord I will open up again
Throw my fears into the wind
I am desperate for a touch of heaven
Na na na
Na na na
Na na na
Da da da
Da da da
Da da da
‘Cause all I want is to live within Your love
Be undone by who You are
My desire is to know You deeper
Lord I will open up again
Throw my fears into the wind
I am desperate for a touch of heaven



Fall in Love

Have you ever love someone that you feel like dying when things d’nt work out the way you expected?

I do. Even though it is been 3 years, still when my mind is into it, my heart hurted so bad.

But now I was able to share about it freely not because now that I am not feeling that pain, instead I am embracing the pain and move on.

Through such love towards a person, I was able to learn what is true love. Because of such love, I get to learn the heartbeat of God, of His longing heart for His child, His lover — human, to seek him back.

It is never an easy process, for God to endure such hurtful feeling. It would be easy for Him to just vanish the earth so He won’t feel such painful journey to witness each of the precious creation died without knowing Him.

I am grateful for such loving experience. It truly teaches me a lesson of love.

We all love in a certain way. Be it to seek for security, peace or even for fun. But only when we came to know what perfect love is, it cast out fear within us. Perfect love make us whole. It is God’s love that make us whole. For God is love. When we know of such love, it is so difficult to not love God back.

Because of fall in love towards someone so deeply, that I came to know the compassion love our Abba Father has towards each and everyone of us. He teaches me to show compassion towards others.

It is only when we truly experience the love of God, only then we able to share to others how Great is His love;

It is only when we taste of His goodness that we able to tell how good is our Heavenly father is;

It is only when we been hurt so deeply that we are able to show mercy towards others who are hurting;

It is only when we been through the darkness moments of life, that we can share of how great our Father’s grace that shower upon us;

It is only when we meet Him face to face, that we can share of His marvellous love that is in store which is always awaits us to draws near to Him.

Life revolves around Love, for Love itself is God alone.

I think I will keep on falling in love with my Lover, again and again. For His love just keep me drowning into the sea of love.



I learned the word “Partnership” through my intimate relationship with God. As I was discovering and learn to know God more and more through His word, I discovered lot of the time every ancient people like Abraham, Israel, David, Samuel and lots more of people mentioned in the Bible doing their daily life with the partnership of God.

I was amazed of how God’s loving heart long to partner with each and every person. He long to take part in our daily decision, our daily task, every more is that He loves to talk with us. He long for the friendship relationship with us.

The partnership of God with us is never about He controlling us but He long for us to tell Him our needs, and with His Almighty grace and mercy and love, He wanted to bless us with the perfect gift. All that He seek is we willing to build an intimate relationship with Him —- through our daily devotion, our daily conversation with Him, our connection with Him that let Him in and invite Him to take part in our decision making and pray to Him for the best decision.

We may bring our request to Him and wait patiently upon His answer. This surely requires our patience in waiting for His timing.

Besides of we bringing our request to Him, God Himself also long for us to listen to His heartbeat. God Himself seek for someone to be His representative in this broken world to bring healing to the broken hearted, mended the wounds of the hurts, spread the Good News, share the joys…

For God Himself long for everyone of His creation back to Him —- the Creator of Heaven and Earth. To make everyone know of His existence. God long for partnership more than we do. For the Scriptures in 1 Corinthians 13 : 4 – 7 says: ” Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”

God Himself is love, He never demand us to response Him when we don’t understand of Him, He always wait so patiently until the day we fully understand of His grace, mercy and love.

For His love is so tender and soft, hence, if currently you are in the midst of doubts, or struggles or even challenges that you just don’t understand why such things happened, don’t lose hope, seek God for the answer. The more you seek Him, the more you will be understandable of His marvellous love and grace for us.

Need not to be rush in the process, but take it a step in a time, for God is always there for us. It is always our freewill to seek Him or not. He never be forceful. He is so loving and kind.

Partnership requires two person working things together

Partnership requires two person working things together. Along the whole process, it is so peaceful because you trust the person that you are partnering with. You will be joyful to see how wonderful that when you manage to solve the issues together. For peace, hope and joy will just keep you moving on.

So, let’s your relationship with God be formed out of love, not out of forceful feeling. For one thing is sure, when you had that intimate relationship with God, your heart will be tender soft and long and seek for deeper and deeper relationship with God. Soon, partnership with God will be happened so naturally along the process.

May your life be a joyful life that delight in God.

God’s own Timing

God has His own timing in each and everyone life.

This is truly a huge topic to share, but I will just narrow it down to my personal journey with God. For I believe God created each one of us uniquely so that we able to live our life the unique way as well.

God always long for a intimate relationship from each of us, it is through our personal relationship with Him that we able to discover our unique purpose on this planet earth. Hence, never take it lightly of your personal relationship with God.

To be honest, I am actually dint take a serious thought of my relationship with God initially when I first came to know Christ. For instant, it was just a conversion to accept Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour during 2010. As to me by that time, God’s Salvation and Good News is all about knowing the Creator of this earth.

Thus, I was trained to be commit to a church and serve in church as how the Holy Bible tells us about. I never given a second thought to ponder on every action that I take. But God is good all the time, He created us to have freewill, to be able to question things we don’t truly understand…

Consequently, one thing leads to the other, I started to question and had argument of certain things or matters that I don’t understand. It was truly a roller coaster journey. Moreover, God knows my heart very well, His grace is always sufficient to me. Through much of the searching to understand God’s own heartbeat for His child, I was blessed to get to know more deeply about God’s word, His heartbeat and His will for us.

As a consequences, I discovered it is actually a good way to start when we started to dispute on things we truly don’t understand. It is an opportunity in life that we can encounter God more and more. The more we questions, it actually helps to make the unclear clear.

It is really a funny process to me, but I am eternally GRATEFUL to God for His unfailing LOVE for me. To be specific on a certain issue in my life, it would be the most question that everyone ask, “If God truly love me, why would SUCH THING happened?”

I think everyone would started to question their faith when a TRAGEDY happened. In this issue, I won’t say that God let the tragedy happened, but instead we are living in broken world, which hurting and pain is unavoidable. But in God, we are able to find rest and peace.

For me, during 2012, one of my close aunt passed away because of cancer. I was so enthusiastic  and active in serving in church for God, but I never take time to spend with her. Hence, when such tragic happens, I question God! “Why you didn’t take away the cancer? Why you let such things happened? Why you dint give me chance to share gospel to her?” A lot of ‘WHY’ questions keep pop up in my head.

Gracefully, God is good. From that moments onwards, I learned to argue in matters that I don’t understand. One step at a time, God answered my prayer. He never let me go even when I doubt about Him oppositely it is a chance that God leads me to know Him deeper than the previous way of my knowledge of Him. It is an adventurous journey to be leads by the Holy Spirit.

All I can conclude, God is marvelous and magnificent in teaching me life lesson.

God has His personal timing in telling me matters of my life. He know when is the exact time that I need to learn LESSON A, when is the exact location to tell me LESSON B or even when is the exact situation to teach me LESSON C. He is like a coach to me, a father that teach His daughter to learn.

There is no any other teacher or coach that be able to teach me so precisely. Which is why I always felt grateful to had know Him more deeply and build such eternal relationship with Him. It is such a privilege, just like having a superstar friend that willing to share His plan and life with you, or you had a billionaire friend that willing to teach you about investment without require your payment!

As I walking my life journey with God, one step at a time, is just like climbing a mountain. It is never an easy way to go but for sure it is a joyful journey. I am not sure how many of you love hiking, but hiking requires stamina. If you never once climb any mountain or hill, it would be similar like you are taking staircase for may be 11 store high?! haha

As I climb up the hill, there will be time I am exhausted, that need a stop, there will be time I am able to climb easily (especially at the beginning), there will be time I need a long rest, there will be time as well that I felt like giving up, or just say that is it!

But the journey with God is an eternal journey, I know that my journey and my story with Him is everlasting, and I believe as long as I stay connected with Him, He will always keep me on track.

Certainly, there will be a time I felt wanna be rebellious, but God know it all, He is always patience and kind to wait for me. There is no one on earth that has such capacity of love. All I can see in the world, is everyone is rushing to fulfil their dream, if you are not in his or her plan, soon you will be out of the picture of their life. But in God, it is a different story!

He always wanted us to be in His story. He remember every single moments of our life, He knew it all, even when we run away from Him, His loving heart still there with an everlasting open arm awaits for us to return.

In the course of time, never give up in seeking His face even when you are mad at Him or even blame Him for anything, just try to give a chance for God to tell you something. Doubtlessly, someday in the future you will found the answer.

Never give up in your relationship with God. Hang in there.


Keep your curiosity on, keep on questioning in life, search for the answer of what you doubt with, for certain, someday somehow you will find it!

For God is good and He indeed is a loving Father that we able to call Him friend, Abba Father, our Redeemer, our Saviour, our Hope and eternality Lover in life.


Each and every day is a gift from God, each and every person we met in life is a precious person to which we able to share life together even a slot of time, be it one hour, a day, a week, a month,a year or years to go.

Always treasure that very moments we had together, as we never know how life will take us to. There will be moments when a friend that is intimate with us someday we will  be apart due to different circumstances.

What is ahead of us, we never know. Hence learns to treasure the present, now. Who is with you at such moments today? I was spending my day with my sister, even though she is watching her drama while I am writing this post. Despite we are doing different things at the time, but we are together. Such moments are to be hold dear, as it will soon become our past. We would not be able to get back to the previous moment ever again.

Therefore, spend our time wisely with people we cherish most, for the time we share with them is a portion of our life that we willing to give them as a present.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 (ESV)

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:

a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to tear, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time for war, and a time for peace.


Time management is always a life long learning course for us. Each of us is given the same amount of time each day, 24 hours. It is a fair gift from God, no one can ever deny such fact. Thus, it is up to us how to use our time.

Thus, it is always a wise decision to make who you will spend your time with, what you will do with the time given, where you want to be at a time like this or that, how you will spend the time or such and such.

Ultimately, the choice and decision is ours to make. No one can made those decision for us, for God given us free will to choose and make decision. We are born with free will, and so, spend your life wisely.

Make your life count! Yes, I am working on it!

Best wishes to all of you.


The journey start with a first step of FAITH

My life came to a turning point when I been found in Jesus. It was during my freshman study in university by the year 2010. The journey began when I met a bunch of brothers and sisters who brought me to PC Fair.

Through such encounter, I had been given an opportunity to join their life group which soon opened the way that leads me to the Lord of the universe.

In the year of 2010, which Nick Vujicic’s life testimony started to spread all over the world, it had became the link for me to get close to God. I am always grateful even until today, amazed with God wonderful hands of work that guide the way for me to back to His Home.

Therefore, the joyful and adventurous journey started…20170424_174433.jpg

The journey was like “The Road Less Traveled” as what lays ahead of me – the journey in Christianity is truly unknown and full of uncertainty that I could not imagined.

But because I had the word of God – Holy Bible, sharing and caring from brothers and sisters in church, sermons shared by pastor in church, it was a food for me as toddle Christian, that I was able to grow and learn in Christ.

(to be continue…)